Previvors guilt

Survivor guilt occurs when a person believes they have done something wrong by surviving a traumatic event when others did not.

I haven’t taken the time to type out a blog post in so long… through this Pandemic, working from home and being in a strict quarantine for almost 6 months, life has been INSANE!

But with so much going on in my life, I want to write more often… it is kinda the point Megan!! 😉 lol.

BIG NEWS! We are moving in a week!! Bye-bye Cape Town and hello Port Elizabeth! I am so excited, it feels like a new start. It is going to be so good to be in a place where all the memories from the last year and half aren’t there all the time. I know it is mostly all in my mind, but I am going to take it! Anything to make life better at this point is a win for me!

I have struggling SO much with my back pain lately… it has been a year and 6 months since I was last at the Chiropractor for a proper adjustment and man O man, I can feel it! Sitting all day working and then being at home and not really being able to move my body too much throughout the day, it has really just taken the pain I was in before lockdown, to another level! I made an appointment to see the Chiro this week and went, and for the first time in a VERY long time, I could lie on my front and get adjusted. It felt good but the pain is still extreme…

It sounds silly, but I really wish there was a doctor out there… that would just care! Fully care about what my body is feeling and what I have been through and take the time to help and not just treat each symptom separately… BLEH! Doctors…. Not my fave subject these days!

To top of my bad spell rant, my right foob is giving me issues… it feels sooo tight and it throbs (I hope that makes sense and isn’t weird) I obviously have all the bad things going through my mind, like capsule contractor or muscle tightening… oh holy moly! My mind is my worst enemy!

Ok enough of ALL of that for now, on to happy stuff!

Moving to PE, means being closer to my family and my Dad. Aww I cannot wait! It means having a garden for my doggies and a better home for Russel and myself!!! 😊

Packing sucks, but the up side is getting rid of SO MUCH that we just do not need! We will be giving all the extra clothing and bits and bobs and toys and stuffies away and hopefully they will make someone else smile.

Today is the 1st of October and marks my second year of being a Previvor for Breast Cancer awareness month! Hence the title of this blog post… Previvors Guilt… I feel like what I went through is nothing compared to what cancer survivors go through and I don’t have a right to complain about my pain and emotional trauma, because others have been through soo much worse…


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